for better for worse

I don't want to be defined as Lisa long-legs anymore! I am sooo much more and just because I have long legs doesn't mean I can run faster, better or further. I'm tired and this post is one after a long hiatus and it doesn't even have anything to do with craft or children. I need to express some things, I am sick of trying to be that perfect person. I need to learn how to be happy right now with this moment. I am messy, I would rather be reading than cleaning but head says clean. I am spontaneous, I would rather bounce on the trampoline at 6pm than cook, but head says cook. I can be sad, I can wallow in music and nostalgia around 4pm, head says snap out of it you are alive and healthy. I have too much coffee and too many red-rock chips, be healthy. I love my children,we play alot but you know I don't always want to play with them, head says play they grow up too fast.
I am a good friend to many people, but sometimes I just want to rent a cottage on the ocean and be alone.... for days, head says ring your friends and be sociable. I try to keep fit, I want to look good, fabulous at 40 and all that, but some days I just want to curl up with a good book and drink hot chocolate, head says keep fit people with admire you and you will live longer.
I try to draw, to sew clothes, to knit and design and I try to do it in the purest way possible but many days I feel uninspired and really Im not that good head says be creative thats your outlet.
Ive taken the organic pledge, but it is overpriced and abit of a wank! head- organic is better for you, save the planet and all that. I am married and the obedient servent but what I really want is to experience that first kiss again, head says for better for worse.
For anyone who is still reading this you can see I am a little frustrated right now and torn between my heart and head. I know what is right but how I want to follow my heart.
I don't want to be the perfect child anymore
I am me as I am warts and all
Lisa

back again for March

hello , I had to write because 1/ I have been slack and2/ I am listening to my children's banter on friday evening and everything is good.
Today I shared a lovely day with a special friend. She moved away last year and I miss her everyday so today was proof that dear friends can never wander too far. Sadly I don't have any creative pictures to upload but have wonderful thoughts racing. My first small yet creative Sunday is happening here so will see what eventuates after children are left to quite simply 'create' with of course beautiful materials and afternoon tea!!!
As well my little boy is riding his two wheeler bike, unaided. A proud yet sheepish smile escapes each time he takes off and looks back at muma!! I did tell him the story of muma looking back whilst learning to ride her bike and bang there goes a white post with muma flying over the handle bars. Sadly muma was 13 at the time and never did regain her pushbike mojo again~!

Its hot and everyone is abit grumpy!

Just touching base with my space here. We are into the last week of our summer holidays and I am really feeling like I need some committment to get me back into some routine. I am the kind of person that can be very whimsical and spontaneous which often results in unplanned days and me being a little on edge because I didn't organize my day that well. It is also very hot and so the days are either indoors or at the local pool. How I would love to be beside the seaside......... Alas its off to the local pool whereby my 6yrold declared the water was too cold and refused to get in, mind you its 100 degrees! So after an hour of sunscreening,packing all the gear and sweltering in the car to get there we left, all very grumpy!
My craft blog is turning into late night ramblings... A promise to post some creations tomorrow. Meanwhile I will just drool over everyone elses.

2009 starts today

Im starting the new year today, a little late but today feels the first time we all feel well and we can all breath out again. We also got out the house and out of our country town for a day.
Today we jumped on trains and trams to head to Melbourne and St Kilda beach. It was an adventure especially when we had to track down a Thomas the tank backpack from the tram depot. Slight detour but nevertheless still fun for my wide-eyed country children.
Highlights for me were aboarding the carousel at Luna Park and watching Alister and Pearlies faces light up when the horses went up really high. I also love travel by tram, bumping along observing everything and getting nowhere very fast!
Best of all I had roughly an hour to knit on the train whilst my children were able to busy themselves (for once).
Today was a spirited day. It was great to soak up the atmosphere of Melbourne in holiday mode!
Pictures to post tomorrow